My Beautiful Alice…
I sit here now the night before you turn five, I’m surrounded by your presents all wrapped and ready for you to rip open in the morning and your pink number 5 balloon. But still it won’t sink in that my baby girl, my first born is going to be five.
I look at you now and staring back at me, is no longer the baby that made me a mummy, but a proper little girl and a school girl as well. You’ve grown up so much over this last year and I couldn’t be prouder of you.
You are such a thoughtful, caring soul, you teach me more than I teach you. You seem to be able to sense when mummy is not in a good place and you will come over and tell me it’s going to be ok and give me a hug. You tell you me you love just at the moment that I’m about to loose the plot (with life, not you!) and in that split second you’ve melted my heart and brought me back down.
You will sit and write for hours, with me spelling out words for you, desperate to learn. I glance over at you and you remind me of myself who just loved to write. I hope that you continue to follow in my footsteps and enjoy writing too.
Don’t get me wrong you also have a fierce side, a stubborn side. Your daddy and I were just talking about this and wonder where it comes from. You are truly a real mixture of us both at times, but you will always look like your daddy.
You’ve waited all year for it to be your turn to be 5 years old, watched all your friends have their birthdays and now my darling daughter it is your turn. You get to shine for the day. You’ve gone to bed the most excited I’ve ever seen you, desperate for sleep to wash over you, so that you can wake up on your birthday.
You have the whole day mapped out in your little mind and I just hope that we don’t disappointed you or let you down. But I know that you would never say anyway. It’s just not your way, you are always really grateful for everything that you receive and you don’t ask for anything in life.
When I am most proud of you is when I see you with your sister, I couldn’t ask for a better big sister for Holly. You love her unconditionally and there isn’t anything you wouldn’t do for her. To see you grow together, it’s a privilege to have a ring side seat. The summer holidays you come alive and have spent every single second together. Yes you bicker like only sisters can, but more than anything you play together, love each other and I can only hope that you will always be there for each other.
My beautiful daughter on your fifth birthday I couldn’t be prouder of the little girl that you’ve become, I love you more than words can say and I love that you tell me at least 10 times a day that you love me. You couldn’t sit any closer to me on the sofa and whilst it can sometimes be suffocating I will never ask you to move over a little, as I know that there will come a time when you won’t want to be that close. But for now I can’t bare to think about that day.
Shine tomorrow, like I know you will, enjoy your moment. I have so many hopes and wishes for you over the next year and I can’t wait to spend every single day with you.
Love you always and forever