The day I became a mummy…

I had dreamt of the day for so long, the day that I would be a mummy, the day that my life would change forever…

The day I found out that I was expecting a baby, will stay with me forever, it was a Saturday morning and I could not contain my excitement when the words ‘pregnant’ appeared. From that day I did everything I could to keep my baby safe and my little one was always in my thoughts…

It was a bit overwhelming, should I eat this? will this hurt the baby? everyday things that I normally would just get on with, stopped me in my tracks and made me question it first. I brought some books and was constantly on the internet finding out the answers to all these questions that I had, all day, every day!

Then the morning sickness arrived, well actually all day and night sickness…I wrote about this on my blog, you can read it here.


Six months pregnant…

The day of the scan, where we could find out if it was going to be blue or pink, was so exciting. Now, I am the type of person that if there is information to know about, then I want to know, regardless of the situation. Why would I wait? How can I be organised if I wait? for someone that loves to be organised this was not even something that was up for debate. I would find out what we  were having. Luckily, Andy was totally with me on this and it was not a discussion we really need to have… phew!

Ok, I think it’s alright for me to say this out loud now? I secretly wanted a girl, I always dreamt of having a girl…but, I did the usual ‘I really don’t mind what it is’, but that was really just for me, to prepare myself in case it was a boy. I practically convinced myself it was a boy, I didn’t dare think it was a girl! Of course, if I had been blessed with a boy, I would have been overjoyed. Having now had a baby, I now know that it really doesn’t matter if it’s pink tor blue…the love you feel for this little bundle that you have created, is like no other love.

Anyway back to the scan, I am led on the bed, all the checks are being done and then finally the question ‘would you like to know what you are having?’ Yes, I practically scream at the lady and then I hear the words ‘It’s a girl’ and my heart melts. I would have a daughter…

After my sickness left me, I had a few months of enjoying my pregnancy, watching my bump grow was amazing and I just wanted it be big enough so that I looked pregnant, how naive was I! Because when it’s big, it’s uncomfortable and everything is harder to do.

Then I suffered from pelvic pain (symphysis pubis dysfunction), I couldn’t walk for long periods, going up stairs was painful and getting in and out of cars was a challenge!

But, even with all the horrible sickness and the pelvic pain, all I could think about was holding my baby girl in my arms…that was what got me through it, it would all be worth it…I would be a mummy and I couldn’t wait!

Everything I read about first time pregnancies, was that they tend to be late…so when I woke up one Saturday morning, two weeks before my due date, feeling strange and wondering what was happening I didn’t think it was labour starting. But, I was wrong, my baby girl was on her way…

I was in early labour all day Saturday, we went for a lot of walks to try and speed things along, but she was taking her time to make an appearance. That night, I was getting a bit worried that everything was ok, the midwife was lovely and told me if I wanted to come and be checked over to come in, so that’s what we did. She confirmed I was in early labour, but still had a way to go and so, we went back home.

I spent all day Sunday in a labour and that evening I was bouncing on my ball, watching the closing ceremony of the London Olympics. During the night I was worried that because things had been going on for so long, was my baby girl ok? So, again we had a trip to the hospital in the middle of the night and saw the same midwife. She checked me over and I heard the heartbeat which was amazingly reassuring and we were sent back home again!

Monday was spent watching DVDs, walks and baths…then not long after we had dinner and I was stood up, leaning on the back of a chair, I heard a pop and water was running down my leg. I immediately shouted ‘get me of the rug’…even in the middle of labour, I think about the mess!! Andy phoned up the hospital and they were asking him lots of questions and all I would say was ‘I am going to hospital now’, the pain went through the roof when my waters broke. So, we headed to the hospital, I can’t really remember the journey, I zoned out!

We were back in the pre-delivery room for the third time, the midwife sent Andy off to move the car and get my hospital bag…this time we were staying! I could then hear the midwifes talking outside…he isn’t back yet, I think he might miss it!!

My baby girl was ready to come out and there was no time to move me to the delivery suite and there was no sign of Andy!! The midwifes were bringing everything they needed from the delivery suite into the room and we were ready to start pushing…where was Andy??

At that moment, he arrived and started to tell us about the problems going on in the car park…he was completely oblivious to the fact that we were about to be parents! There was no time for any drugs or even gas and air, I pushed my baby girl out on a paracetamol that I had 4 hours ago!!

The moment that she was put in my arms…the arms that were always meant to hold her, the arms that had been longing to hold her for so long, the arms that would protect her…it hit be that I was a mummy.

We named you Alice…

One day old



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  1. 29/01/2016 / 09:44

    Lovely post! It’s funny that you just know when it’s time to go to hospital – I had to start pushing as soon as we arrived and there was no time for gas and air or anything either! #picknmix

    • 29/01/2016 / 12:33

      Thank you. Yes, your mummy instincts kick in from the start of motherhood. thank you for reading x

  2. 29/01/2016 / 11:15

    Beautiful post that brought a tear to my eye. I am currently 40 + 5 weeks pregnant with my first baby and yep shes girl as well! Waiting everyday now for labour to start. XX


    • 29/01/2016 / 12:35

      Ah thank you for reading. Good luck, it really is the most amazing experience. Hope she makes an appearance soon x

  3. amylovestosew
    29/01/2016 / 19:44

    Beautiful baby girl! My daughter is 3 months old this week, but I still feel so overwhelmed remembering the birth and when I first held her – such a magical, mind-blowing, amazing time. Thanks for sharing 🙂

    • 29/01/2016 / 20:39

      It really does stay with you forever, you never forget the moment you hold your baby for the first time. I hope you are enjoying getting to know your little girl, love the early months. thank you for reading x

  4. 30/01/2016 / 13:17

    Lovely post! Brings back lots of memories for me both good and not so pleasant (I struggled with SPD on my last pregnancy) There is nothing in the world quilte like holding your baby for the very first time!

  5. 30/01/2016 / 13:32

    What a lovely account! I don’t envy you pushing on paracetamol alone though – just having gas and air was bad enough!! So glad Andy made it on time though and of course, it’s all worth it in the end!

    • 31/01/2016 / 16:59

      I know! I kept looking at the gas and air, thinking she is going to give it to me any minute now and then there was no time I was pushing! It was worth every second! Thank you for reading

  6. 30/01/2016 / 20:54

    This just gave me the feels what a gorgeous girl she is and even more special that you carried your bundle of joy inside you for 9 months. It must have been the happiest day of your life!

    • 31/01/2016 / 17:00

      Thank you. It is a privilege to carry a baby and it really was the happiest day.

  7. Angela Milnes
    30/01/2016 / 21:08

    oh your post reminds me of the day i became a mum too! Its such an amazing experience isnt it and as hard as it is ..holding our babys for the first time is something we never forget!

  8. 30/01/2016 / 22:16

    This is a lovely post, congratulation and welcome to earth Alice. I hope you grow healthy, always smiling and also mum too. I wish you good luck always take care. I can’t stop looking at the photo. She’s so beautiful!

    • 31/01/2016 / 17:02

      Ah thank you, that’s kind of you to say. Being her mummy I think she is beautiful, but always lovely to hear it from someone else 🙂

  9. 31/01/2016 / 01:00

    Our little girl has been sick recently and my wife has been supporting her and helping her through a bad sickness bug. Her maternal instincts have been strong. I learned a few things her. When we got married, I became a stepdad over night, it has not been easy, but I have loved every minute.

    Thanks for Sharing

    John M

  10. 31/01/2016 / 07:58

    What a lovely post, its good to know that many people had the longing long before they actually had their babies. I am at the longing stage and imagine all sorts. Your daughter is beautiful, thanks for sharing your story.

    • 31/01/2016 / 17:03

      Thank you. Yes, I longed for my baby and it was totally worth the wait.

  11. Jenni - Odd Socks and Lollipops
    31/01/2016 / 14:27

    Awww what a lovely post, Alice is adorable! I suffered with HG for all of my pregnancy and my sickness only lifted when I give birth to my daughter at 41 weeks! I love reading birth stories they are such a wonderful moment to share.

    • 31/01/2016 / 17:05

      Thank you 🙂 Oh you poor thing, the doctor did warn me, that I might have it for my whole pregnancy, so I was very relieved when it went at around 17 weeks. I love reading birth stories too, very special moment.

  12. Fillia
    31/01/2016 / 16:07

    Congratulation for you and your cute Alice. Thank you for sharing your moment. Reading this give me a bit of excitement for the future life. I always nervous each time I think of giving birth of my baby in the future, but your story helps me see this from a different angle.

    • 31/01/2016 / 17:06

      Ah that’s lovey to hear. It is a wonderful moment, that will stay with you forever 🙂

  13. 31/01/2016 / 16:27

    Oh she did want to come fast! I love that Andy made it just in time despite being a bit oblivious to what was happening, I wonder if it’s a man “my life is changing lets talk about the weather” mechanism!

  14. 31/01/2016 / 17:07

    Yes, probably ha ha!! He was the proudest daddy at the end 🙂

  15. 31/01/2016 / 22:18

    Oh wow, after all that waiting she was keen to make an appearance quickly!! Bless you. Such gorgeous pictures of your little girl. Well done on the no pin relief very impressed xx

    • 01/02/2016 / 19:47

      I know, just pleased Andy got back in time! Thank you, that’s lovely of you to say. Ha Ha, it wasn’t a planned choice, just no time! It was the same with my second daughter, no pain relief!!! x

  16. 04/02/2016 / 16:33

    Aw there really is nothing like that first moment that you hold them is there?! 🙂 Thanks for linking up to #PicknMix

    Stevie x

  17. 04/02/2016 / 20:12

    Aww lovely post, glad he made it back in time, I was getting a bit worried for you. Thanks for linking to #PickNMix x