Looking Back…A mini series #1

Looking Back…A mini series #1

I first thought about starting an online diary of my life as a mummy three and half years ago, but I wasn’t brave enough and I thought no-one would be interested in reading it. Fast forward to 2016 and the New Year and whilst I still don’t think anyone is interested in reading it, I am a little bit braver and with the encouragement from my husband…dear bear and beany was born.

I love writing my blog, my little piece of the internet, a place for all my thoughts and a place to capture the story of our life. I really wish I had been brave enough to start it three and half years ago when I became a mummy, but I can’t change that.

What I can do though is to take a look back and capture the last three and half years right here. So, I am going to start a mini series called Looking Back and every week I will blog about my life that got me to this point.

I wrote a post about the day I became a mummy, which you can read here…but I am going to start a step before that…

The day I found out I was pregnant…

Andy and I got married in November 2010 and we decided that we would enjoy a year of being married, just the two of us before we started our family. This year was spent going on our honeymoon on Boxing Day and spending three wonderful weeks exploring Australia and Bali.

We had moved house four months before we got married and we hadn’t had time to make any changing to the house to make it feel like home. We also managed to squeeze in a long weekend to Rome, which was a lovely weekend spent taking int the sites and eating lots of food.


As our first wedding anniversary was approaching we started to talk about two becoming three and we were ready to become parents. It was an easy to decision to make, Andy and I had already talked a lot about it before we got married and we both couldn’t wait to be parents.

It was a Saturday morning, I had waited until the morning to take the test, as they tell you the first wee of the day gives you the best reading. Yes, even before you are pregnant, the joy of talking about personal things like going to the toilet start…

I remember going into the ensuite, doing a wee on the stick and placing it on the window sill. Andy was the other side of the door still snoozing in bed. He knew I was going to take the test, but he was still in the land of nod and completely oblivious that his life could be about to change the other side of the door.

It felt like forever waiting for the words to appear, I didn’t have a watch on, so I wasn’t even timing it. Then suddenly there they were the words ‘PREGNANT 1-2 weeks’. I couldn’t believe it, I was going to be a mummy. I felt like my whole life had been taking me to this point.


I rushed out the bathroom door shouting at Andy, who was startled by all noise he was waking up to. Then he realised what I was saying and the look on his face told me that I had definitely married the right one, he was as excited as me.

There was one person I couldn’t wait to tell and that was my mum. I didn’t want to do it over the phone, it felt too special for that. So we jumped in the car and went over to tell my parents they were going to be grandparents again…

Telling my parents that I was pregnant was a wonderful moment, they have been there through all the ups and downs in my life, but to tell them that I was carrying their grandchild was the best feeling ever.

It’s hard to put in words how you feel when you find out that you have a baby growing inside you, that precious cargo is on board and really it was that day that I became a mummy. Because from that moment, I would have done anything to keep my baby safe.

That day my life changed forever and I will never forget the moment I saw the words PREGNANT…

The next stage was the dreaded morning sickness, I have already written about my life with morning sickness, which you can read here.

I will back next week to share with you how I coped with the first few weeks as a first time mummy…



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  1. 10/03/2016 / 19:32

    What a lovely idea to look back on the last few years, and great to relive such an exciting day. Sounds like you managed to make your first year married full of happy memories too.

    • 10/03/2016 / 20:52

      Thank you 🙂 Yes, we definitely made the most of our pre-children year! I am loving looking back and remembering these special moments x

  2. 10/03/2016 / 19:56

    Oh this is a lovely post – I started blogging two years ago and have been a Mummy for twenty years this summer! I love writing posts about our past – my aim is to have it all documented on the blog one day. Kaz x

    • 10/03/2016 / 20:53

      Thank you 🙂 Yes, that is what I want to do, have it all here to remember forever. I think it will take you a bit longer than me with 20 years of memories x

  3. georgina prince (was Davies)
    10/03/2016 / 19:59

    aww it’s lovely to read people experiences that are so personal like this, thanks for sharing xx

    • 10/03/2016 / 20:53

      I really enjoyed writing it and remembering these special times x

  4. 10/03/2016 / 20:11

    I really enjoyed reading this post and of course it triggered my own memories. Such an exciting point to s wonderful journey!

    • 10/03/2016 / 20:55

      Thank you. Yes, it really is a wonderful journey that just gets better and better x

  5. Dean of Little Steps
    10/03/2016 / 22:49

    Look forward to reading the next post. I remember the first time too. I did the test first thing in the morning, the first wee (I like to follow instructions). I think it was about 4 or 5am. My husband and I were both groggy with sleep when the two lines appeared. I tried it again and it was positive. We’ve been trying for some time to have a baby and we finally have one, well she’s five now 😉 x

    • 11/03/2016 / 22:04

      Thank you, it will be here next week 🙂 You really don’t forget that moment when you find out you are pregnant, a memory that will stay with you forever x

  6. 10/03/2016 / 23:31

    Lovely idea for a mini series! This is a great account of a wonderful moment in your life.

  7. 11/03/2016 / 00:18

    Aw well done! You have come so far and I loved looking back into the 2010 you when you were pregnant xx

  8. 14/03/2016 / 06:55

    I love the idea of a “Looking back” series so that you can capture those precious memories. The day you find out you’re going to be a mum is such a precious time and it’s lovely that you’ve recorded it in this beautiful post.

    I’ll look forward to reading your other “looking back” posts.

    Dawn x

    • 14/03/2016 / 14:18

      Thank you, I am really going to enjoy re-living some moments through this series. x

  9. 14/03/2016 / 13:07

    Ah, such a lovely post – it’s such a lovely life-changing event! I remember it all being a bit surreal and just keeping it to myself (for all of a few minutes!) #bigpinklink

    • 14/03/2016 / 14:13

      Thank you 🙂 It really is a memory that lasts forever, I can remember the smallest of details so clearly.

  10. 14/03/2016 / 15:03

    It’s so lovely to look back on fond memories. I have a draft post on the day I found out I was pregnant but mine had a surprise element! So lovely that you went in person to tell your mum, what a special moment x via #MarvMondays

    • 14/03/2016 / 19:36

      ooh that sounds like a good read. Yes, it really was lovely x

  11. 14/03/2016 / 20:36

    Aw, such a lovely read! It takes me back to the day I found out with A, and the first thing I did was also hop in the car and go and tell my Mum and Dad. They were so overwhelmed they got teary. Amazing memories. Thanks for linking up to #MarvMondays! Kaye xo

  12. 14/03/2016 / 23:45

    It is such a magical moment, I remember doing that same test myself… a few time! #MarvMondays

  13. The Pramshed
    15/03/2016 / 15:51

    Such a lovely post, it’s so exciting and nerve wracking that moment of peeing on a stick and waiting. This brought back memories of when we found out, the first test didn’t work and we waited for ages for nothing to happen, the second test worked. We then went to get takeaway fish and chips, and I sat outside waiting for my husband, feeling excited, sick, nervous, shocked. Such a special day. Claire x #MarvMondays

    • 15/03/2016 / 20:21

      Thank you 🙂 It really is a special time and one that you don’t forget, even the little details x