Life with Two…Looking Back #15

Life with Two…Looking Back #15

Welcome back to my little mini series where I am looking back over our family memories, if you have missed one you can pop here to catch up

Life after bringing Holly home for the first time did not slow down, it was very different to the days we had following Alice’s arrival. We had a toddler to entertain and we had to get ready to attend Andy’s cousins wedding, where he would be an usher and Alice was going to be a flower girl.

I was so excited about seeing Alice as a flower girl, but also very apprehensive about taking a ten day old baby to a wedding. But, we survived and it was a lovely day and Alice looked adorable.

Once we were over that hurdle, we then set about starting our life as a family of four. Andy returned to work and I tried to find my feet with juggling a newborn and a toddler. I had the girls at home with me all day, everyday, which was challenging at times.

What you do quickly realise is actually newborns are fairly easily, they sleep a lot and they feed a lot. Alice had only just turned two and so she was quite contented with playing with her toys or going to the park. What did happen was that she became obsessed with babies and everywhere we went baby had to come too. Sometimes it felt like I had two babies and a toddler!

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Some of the hardest times was when Holly needed to feed for a long time. I had been given a tip from a friend to have a bag of tricks for these moments to give to Alice. It contained stickers, books and toys that she could happily sit with me and do while Holly breastfed. I got quite good at balancing Holly, so I could do stickers with Alice.

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There were days where I just didn’t know what to do, Alice needed to nap and Holly needed to feed what did I do first. I had no answers and sometimes I would cry to Andy down the phone.

I had a lot going on, I was worrying about my dad who was ill and we were going to be moving house when Holly would be eight weeks old. Life was crazy and I didn’t know where to turn.

I wasn’t myself, but I didn’t know that at the time. I thought this was going to be my life forever.

Holly was an amazing baby, she was so chilled out and content. Quite frankly if she hadn’t of been, I not sure I would have got through it. Alice was growing up fast and thankfully we hadn’t seen any signs of the terrible twos.

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What I did know from day one was that Alice adored her sister and their sibling bond started from the moment they met. I also knew that we had been blessed with two beautiful daughters and whatever came next in our life, we would always be thankful for that. Two daughters that we love and wouldn’t be without.

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Life was tough, I was in a strange place…but life was also wonderful!

I know there is a lot I haven’t said in this post and things that I have just hinted at. I’m not sure if I am ready to share just yet or if I even know how to find the words.



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  1. 16/06/2016 / 08:27

    I found it a really tough time with a tiny one and a toddler too. All totally worth it though now that they’re of an age where they play together so well.

  2. Dean of Little Steps
    16/06/2016 / 16:27

    I absolutely love that last photo. Priceless! 🙂 It’s clear that they do have such a bond between them. x

  3. 16/06/2016 / 22:22

    Babies are hard work. I had to handle twins on my own pretty much from 3 months, so I know. Hang in there. They grow quickly.

  4. 16/06/2016 / 23:53

    It’s so wonderful when the bond is instant, thats how it was for my two.

  5. How lovely to look back. I struggled so much when I had my son as my little girl was only 14 months old and still a baby herself. J was such a demanding baby too who cried nonstop for months due to colic xx

  6. 17/06/2016 / 12:24

    I don’t know how people do it with 2. I suppose you just get on with it. They always look lovely together now.

  7. 17/06/2016 / 21:25

    How adorable. I’m enjoying your looking back series. It’s nice to read about your experiences and the pictures are lovely too. Angela from Daysinbed

  8. 17/06/2016 / 22:01

    This is so adorable. I cooed so much at the last photo. I can’t imagine how hard it must be at times balancing two, but seeing their bond and knowing that they love each other so much is so amazing. xx

  9. 20/06/2016 / 02:44

    This brings back so many memories for me, Aspen was only 6 weeks off turning 3 when our gorgeous second little girl came into our lives. Aspen loved April from day one and now they are 12 and 9 and they are inseparable. They giggle together all the time and would do anything for one another. When April was 2 we had Adam and suddenly I didn’t have just ‘my girls’, but this new little boy. Again the girls embraced him and the 3 of them are hilarious. At times their little brother drives them nuts, and it hasn’t always been easy. Most days I am exhausted by bedtime! But I feel so lucky that they get along so well. Your girls are so adorable!!!!

  10. 20/06/2016 / 10:30

    There are nineteen months between my two and my eldest decided he hated the baby for the first 6 months or so… I have good memories of this time still, but there were some very stressful times and I couldn’t turn my back for a second without my eldest trying to bite the baby or drop something on his head… brotherly love and all that 😉

    Stevie x