Welcome back to my little mini series where I am looking back over our family memories, if you have missed one you can pop here to catch up
Life after bringing Holly home for the first time did not slow down, it was very different to the days we had following Alice’s arrival. We had a toddler to entertain and we had to get ready to attend Andy’s cousins wedding, where he would be an usher and Alice was going to be a flower girl.
I was so excited about seeing Alice as a flower girl, but also very apprehensive about taking a ten day old baby to a wedding. But, we survived and it was a lovely day and Alice looked adorable.
Once we were over that hurdle, we then set about starting our life as a family of four. Andy returned to work and I tried to find my feet with juggling a newborn and a toddler. I had the girls at home with me all day, everyday, which was challenging at times.
What you do quickly realise is actually newborns are fairly easily, they sleep a lot and they feed a lot. Alice had only just turned two and so she was quite contented with playing with her toys or going to the park. What did happen was that she became obsessed with babies and everywhere we went baby had to come too. Sometimes it felt like I had two babies and a toddler!
Some of the hardest times was when Holly needed to feed for a long time. I had been given a tip from a friend to have a bag of tricks for these moments to give to Alice. It contained stickers, books and toys that she could happily sit with me and do while Holly breastfed. I got quite good at balancing Holly, so I could do stickers with Alice.
There were days where I just didn’t know what to do, Alice needed to nap and Holly needed to feed what did I do first. I had no answers and sometimes I would cry to Andy down the phone.
I had a lot going on, I was worrying about my dad who was ill and we were going to be moving house when Holly would be eight weeks old. Life was crazy and I didn’t know where to turn.
I wasn’t myself, but I didn’t know that at the time. I thought this was going to be my life forever.
Holly was an amazing baby, she was so chilled out and content. Quite frankly if she hadn’t of been, I not sure I would have got through it. Alice was growing up fast and thankfully we hadn’t seen any signs of the terrible twos.
What I did know from day one was that Alice adored her sister and their sibling bond started from the moment they met. I also knew that we had been blessed with two beautiful daughters and whatever came next in our life, we would always be thankful for that. Two daughters that we love and wouldn’t be without.
Life was tough, I was in a strange place…but life was also wonderful!
I know there is a lot I haven’t said in this post and things that I have just hinted at. I’m not sure if I am ready to share just yet or if I even know how to find the words.