To My Beautiful Alice…
This is the first letter that I have written to you since I started my blog and in a way that seems wrong, I wanted this to be a place that I would write to you and your sister. But it only feels right to do it now as you turn four, a milestone in your life.
Your birthday was a busy day and I wrote all about here.
I still remember four years ago when you started our journey into this world, you took your time and gave mummy a really really long labour. I spent the night before you finally arrived sat on the ball bouncing up and down watching the closing ceremony of the London Olympics. Seeing the Olympics on the television now four years later brings it all back!
You are a what people call an old head on young shoulders, sometimes far too sensible for your age. You approach life with caution and care, never one to take a risk. You are my beautiful girl inside and out.
Far from perfect though, you have your fair share of annoying habits and tantrums.
But, a day never goes by where you don’t tell us you love us. You are such an affectionate little girl, who has to sit as close as you possible can to me on the sofa. You hug and kiss us all day long and I love it.
Since the day Holly arrived you have loved her, you are a brilliant big sister and you were made for the job. You have so much patience with Holly and include her in all your games. You are the person she wants to comfort her when she is upset and you do it so well.
Yes, you squabble too, as all siblings do. But that is because you know you can and they will still love you. Its what makes the sibling relationship so special, you forgive without words and just move on.
Holly is so lucky to have you as her big sister as I know that you are going to look after her, her whole life. You are going to be the one that guides her through life and I couldn’t ask anymore of you.
Time is racing by and you are soon going to be starting school and I am so proud of you. You are taking it in your stride, like you do with everything in life. You would go tomorrow if you could, you are that excited.
You make me laugh every day.
You remember EVERYTHING…don’t promise Alice anything, unless you are going to follow through. She doesn’t forget and I have difficult conversations with her most days as she remembers something that someone causally mentioned to her completely innocently.
You are my beautiful little girl, the one that made me a mummy and whilst I know I don’t get it right all the time, I am forever grateful that you did. You turned my world upside down and we learnt together how to do this mother and daughter thing. With tears in my eyes as I type this, I think about the bond that we have and I still can’t bring myself to think that in a few weeks time you are not going to be with me everyday.
I will be with you every step of the way with my invisible hand holding yours as you venture through this next year of school life. But, please don’t grow up too quickly and don’t change too much as you step through those school gates.
Mummy loves you so much and I can only hope that you already knew that…
Love Mummy xxx