I really need to start doing some exercise, I literally do nothing right now. Apart from the odd walk in the woods at the weekends, I don’t do anything else. Which I know is really bad, but until now I’ve had both or one of the girls home with me and exercise was just not a priority for me. I was never going to be a mum that put their child in the gym crèche while I exercised.
Why? Because I’m lazy and I would much rather be sat in the coffee shop, eating Victoria sponge with my girls.
I also found that when I was breast feeding and running around after 2 young children, my weight was easy to maintain. But more recently I’ve put on weight and apart from when I had my girls, I am the biggest I’ve ever been. I mean I know that I am not massive, but when you’re used to being a certain size it can affect how you feel about yourself. Plus my clothes feel tighter and I can’t afford a new wardrobe!
I’m also trying to be kinder to myself and looking after my mental health more. I know that I’m not mentally happy with the way I look, and for that reason alone I should do something about it. As if nothing else, my mental health is important. If I feel happier in the way I look, then that will also affect my confidence, in a lot of areas.
The question is how how do I introduce exercise back into my life. When I single I used to be a member of a gym, and looking back now I would definitely say that the reason I went was to have something to do. When you are single, and you finish work the thought of going home to an empty flat night after night, can be very boring. I would go to the gym to fill my time and it was also company, in a weird way. You would get to see the same people, and say hello to them. And you never know when the man of your dreams was going to walk in! That never happened….not once! Which to be honest is probably a good thing, because the red face, sweaty look is not my best look!!!!!!!!!!
My reasons for going to the gym back then were very different and the actual exercise, wasn’t really the reason.
I now find myself in a position where I work for myself at home, which means that I could go to the gym during the day and fit it around my job. But will I go? I like to think I would, I don’t like to waste money and knowing I’ve paid for it will drive me to go.
But, then my anxiety kicks in and the thought of going and not knowing where all the machines are, how they work and just feeling out of my depth, scares me. I’m sure I can work them out, but just the thought of going makes me sick to my stomach.
The other option is to exercise at home, but then I have to try not to get distracted. There is always work I could be doing, housework that needs to be done. I would have to discipline myself not to push it to the bottom of the list.
So, at the moment I’m looking at my options, I might try working out at home and seeing how I get on. I also don’t want to be one of the January cliche people, who join a gym and have stopped going by Easter.
I will let you know what I decide to do…