This year is going to be a big year for Holly, with lots of big milestones. Her new bedroom furniture has been ordered and she will then move into a bed, which I am not sure any of us are ready for. She will start potty training, once mummy is brave enough to tackle it and I think that Holly is ready.
But, this week saw the first milestone of the year with my little Holly starting preschool. I know it’s a real cliche to say it, but I honestly can’t believe that my youngest, the baby of our family has started preschool. It only feels like yesterday that we were bringing her home, after a rather eventful birth and I was thinking (worrying) about how I would cope with two children.
Since we’ve recently moved house Holly is going to a different preschool to Alice, but one that our friends children go to, which is always nice to have some familiarity. I went to look around before we moved just to be sure that it was the right one for Holly and then we had our induction before Christmas.
Both times we went, she has wanted to go off and play with the toys and been quite happy there. At the induction she joined in with the singing lesson, while I filled in all the paperwork. Of course mummy was there the whole time, so you never really know what they are going to be like on the actual day that you say goodbye and walk out.
Over Christmas we kept talking about Holly starting and we would either get an excited Holly jumping up and down. Or, she would say ‘not yet mummy’. I never pushed it, just kept reminding her that she would be starting soon. As we got closer to the day and we got her bag all ready and everything labeled up. She was very excited to have her bag and her new lunchbox with a flower on it.
The day arrived and thankfully she was an excited Holly and couldn’t wait to put her backpack on and get going. I managed to get a couple of photos, not the best ones, as she just wanted to get going. But I had to have our family tradition of them stood in front of the wooden door, but its a new door for us and it’s now white in our new home! I think from her face you can see how excited she was.
In fact she was so excited that when we were dropping Alice off at school, she was crying because I didn’t have her bag. It was in the car!
Anyway after Alice went into school, but not before telling Holly she hopes she has a lovely time. We got back in the car and she was very excited, thankfully it’s only a couple of minutes down the road as I think she would have burst otherwise.
We saw our friends when we arrived and walked in with them. She found her peg already for her with her name on and hung her coat and bag up. Then she asked me if she could go and play and with that she ran off to the toy kitchen. I met her key worker and we went over to Holly together. She showed Holly where all the food was for the kitchen and then told her that mummy was going to leave now and be back later. With that Holly came and gave me a big hug and kiss and said ‘see you later’.
Whilst of course I’m pleased that she was happy to stay there and she didn’t cry. I did leave with a heavy heart. My baby girl is all grown up and apart from being left with family, I’ve never left her. But, I have to remind myself that I should be proud that we’ve raised a confident little girl that is ready to start experiencing this world without mummy by her side.
I also have to remind myself that she is only going one morning a week and that is no time at all. I’m only ready to share her for a little bit. I do think that it’s the right decision to send her to preschool. Until now she hasn’t really socialised with anyone that she hasn’t met with me and all the children are either family friends or Alice’s friends. It will do her good to not only socialise, but to play, explore and learn new skills. Things that I am not able to teach her at home.
This time next year I will have filled in the school application for her and starting that journey in preparing her for school in September. I can’t even bear to type those words, let alone think about my baby girl at school. But it is a fact and a reality that we need to prepare her for it.
So, whilst I drove home with two empty car seats in the back and remembering that I didn’t have to listen to nursery rhymes anymore. I did have a little cry, not because I was worried about her or because I didn’t want her to go. But, that I honestly can’t believe how quickly the years have gone and it was a reminder to myself to really cherish this time. Because I know that this time before school will fly by too and that I will soon have two little school girls.
This week Holly’s first day to preschool may not be an ordinary moment, but a real milestone in her life. But, I know that it will soon be an everyday ordinary moment that has become part of our everyday life.
Joining Katie from Mummy Daddy Me for The Ordinary Moments