This time of year I just want to be at home all the time, in fact I always just want to be at home. But with the cold weather it makes me want to be at home even more than normal. I just love the comfort of my own home, Holly and I have a weekly routine whilst Alice is at school and it really suits us.
It’s not like we don’t leave the house, we have Holly’s swimming classes and ballet classes. We also always go and meet up with my mum, but we also have lots of time at home. And when Holly is at preschool for 2 days of the week, I really do just stay at home. Mainly because I’m working, but also because I just love being here.
It has made me feel a bit disconnected with people and life really. I’ve not met up with friends for coffee like I normally do, or arrange any playdates for Holly. And of course that is partly all down to me. I haven’t made the effort to contact people and organise things.
I know that it’s in my control to some extent to change how I’m feeling. But as time goes on I feel really anxious about reaching out to people and asking them if they want to meet up. Which is probably really irrational and all in my head, but that’s just how I am.
I know that as the weeks roll on and spring arrives, I will hopefully want to get out more and not feel like hibernating quite so much. I’m always going to be someone that loves to be at home, but I need to push myself more to get out.
When it comes to the girls I always do it, as I know they want to do things, see people and go to places. I’m just not very good when it’s just me.
It’s half term now and once Alice goes back to school, I’m going to make more effort to get myself back out there.
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