On Friday when Holly and I got back from ballet, Holly carried on playing with her babies just as she had before we left. She popped her in the pushchair and pushed her around the kitchen as Andy and I were chatting and making lunch. She was laughing to her baby and just the sound of her little voice made me stop in my tracks.
I turned to Andy and said ‘I can’t believe that soon we won’t have a little person at home during the day’. My heart hurt at the thought of it. Andy responses was a typical one ‘She has to go to school, it will be good for her’. Which of course I snapped back ‘I do know!’. But I also said ‘But you have to understand I’ve had a little person home with me for 6 years, thats a long time’. Andy looked at me, knowing that what a softy I am and said it will be ok…
I know it will be ok, I know that she will be ready and I definitely know that she can’t wait to join her big sister at school. She talks about it a lot! But I love our life right now.
I love the comfort that it brings me. Yes our weeks pretty much look the same each week, Holly and I have fallen into a comfortable routine that we are both happy with. It’s not overly exciting, it’s definitely ordinary, but we love it.
To think that I won’t go to a ballet class again with a little girl dressed as a ballerina, or have a buddy when I go to the coffee shop. Because there will definitely be trips to the coffee shop, but I can’t imagine going alone.
We all know our roles. We look forward to school ending each day and Alice joining us. The house exploding with laughter, the squealing and the girls playing together. Yes, it’s hectic at times, we’ve got homework and reading to do and dinner to cook. But I wouldn’t change it.
Right now, I want to press pause and enjoy our ordinary right now for a little bit longer.
Joining Donna at What The Redhead Said for The Ordinary Moments