When my maternity leave was coming to an end with Holly, we decided that I wouldn’t return to work. That financially it wouldn’t make sense and I also loved being at home with my girls. It was at this point I decided to start writing my blog, I have a really active mind and I’m not very good at doing nothing. I needed an outlet, something for me and to stop me going crazy.
I also hated how fast my girls were growing up and I wanted to capture everything, all those little ordinary moments. The things they said, what they loved and the life that we had together and Dear Bear and Beany was born!
I very quickly fell in love with writing, having a place that I could put all the thoughts that were whirling around my mind. It really helped me to make sense of things getting them out and onto the ‘page’. I also believe that it was blogging that helped me realise I had post natal depression and seek help.
I had no idea that there was a blogging community out there, that there were a lot of other parents doing just this. I still remember joining this Facebook group and people were talking about money and being paid for blogging. It was a shock, I had no idea that this was even a thing.
Over the last couple of years my blog has grown, I’ve worked a lot of hours on it in the evenings when the girls are asleep and on the 2 days Holly was at preschool. But I still never called it my job. In fact I don’t really talk about it to people, unless they are bloggers. I know that to other people it is hard to understand, to get your head around that people pay us. People’s perception of blogging various a lot and it can be easier to just keep quiet. When really I should hold my head up high and be proud of what I do and the community that I’m part of.
Since Easter, Andy and I have been talking about the time that Holly will start school in September. That our life is about to change again and having both our girls in school means that I don’t need to be at home all the time. Andy has always been really supportive of my blog, he can see how much I love it and we both know that we are incredibly lucky with some of the experiences it has brought our family.
Together we’ve decided for me to give blogging a proper go as my job, to see what I can achieve and where I can take my blog. It’s scary and exciting. The start of a new school year, feels like a fresh start and I’m full of ideas of what I would like to do, what I would like to write about. But first I need to clear the back log that the summer holidays have brought.
Blogging is very unpredictable when it comes to working with brands, you have no idea when an email is going to land in your inbox asking you to work with them and even then it doesn’t always carry through. Which can make you nervous at times that no work is coming in. But you have to learn to take the high times, with the low times.
I’d like to thank every single person that has ever read a blog post, liked a Facebook post, given my Instagram photo a heart or my tweet a RT. I appreciate every single one, every single time. You won’t know that by doing that you are supporting me in a way that goes so much further than you will ever know.
I now need to start seeing this as my job and for the first time I will have a job that I 100% love, there will be no Sunday night blues and I feel incredibly lucky.